Wat do I love?

I used to tink I will enjoy working life better... having freedom, annual leave, mc, bonus, job satisfaction working up the coporate ladder blah blah blah

For the past 4 months, I have been working like crazy, day or night, weekday or weekend..... My clock has been turn upside down inside out.... Sad to say, I have to admit that I cannot juggle work, housework, 2 active kids and my own life... everything seems to be in a mess... I was so upset with myself cos I tink I just can't do anything right!!! People keep telling me I am pushing myself too hard.... I guess so....

After Korea trip, I realise this is not right.....  I need to re-organise my life a bit.... cos during tat 7 days, kids had our undivided attention and shows how much they need us.... My kids esp Evan is feeling the stress and difference of not having Mummy with him, not having family time together.... Tat day he asked me "Mummy can we have some time to play together LIKE a family?" I was taken aback and I felt so sad... To have family time is a priority and their right but yet he have to request for it.... why are they being deprived of it? At tat moment I hated myself !!!

I realised its been months since we went swimming, beach, cycling, shopping..... LIKE a family!!! Either we were too tired or schedule just dun allow us to do it together... Daddy and I decided that we just have to get more people to work and resume our NORMAL life!!! There is no repeat of my children childhood.... 

Then I realised actually deep in my heart, I still prefer to work as a nanny, cleaner, chef, teacher, story teller, be with my kids through their growing years....  be more patient and spend more time with them, tats wat I wan to do now... cos when Mummy's time is limited, sleep is deprived and work undone, her fuse just get shorter and shorter.... and who will suffer???