I have been contemplating about tis for the past 2 months.... really feel like going out to work before my value becomes 0... Though i still do part time work for Daddy but its different from working outside...The only reason that hold me back is the kids, dun know if they can get used to life without Mummy nagging day and night.... haha....
But actually kids can adapt very easily so I guess its also me who find it a bit hard to change my lifestyle :( afterall my life had revolved around them for the past 3 years.... everything is about them.... It is a blessing to be able to stay with them through their growing up years, witness their little and big achievements....
Sometimes back, I did mentioned it to Evan... telling him i may have to put him on full day childcare should I really go out to work... His tears rolled and my heart breaks....
Last night, he overheard us talking about work schedule and when I asked him over, saying I wan to talk to him.... His tears rolled again... "Mummy I know what u wan to tell me, I have to be full day is it?" That was not wat I wanted to say.... but he really melted out hearts and the look in Daddy's eyes told me I should continue looking after them.....
Should I feel touched, happy or sad? I dun know....
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