I felt so guilty for shouting at my kids, I won't say they are naughty but Mummy is in a super lousy mood today... so when they are not doing things according to my way, I just lost it... Then I actually break down and when tears started rolling, both of them rushed to take tissue, started to hug and kiss me telling me " Mummy its ok I love you"... tats e point when I hate myself... they are so lovable and Mummy loves them so much...
"Never judge a child's behaviour to be his/her character"
I believes there is no bad child... its just how much patience u can put in and how u handle them.... Till now I would say my patience improved a lot but I am still working hard on it... Its not easy to handle work and 2 mischievious ones 24/7.... but to see them growing up happily and how attached they are to me tells me my sacrifices and efforts are well paid off...
I guess thats e "bad" point of being a sahm... my whole life revolves around them till some point I tink I loss myself... Of cos I still enjoy their company and loves having them around me, they are the reason to my happiness... guess its just tat part of me craves to have the freedom and life I used to enjoy... a job tat I enjoy, spending power, able to sit down enjoy my coffee/meal in peace,..... but I still will be a sahm for a couple more years...
Have a good night sleep... tomorrow will be better!!!
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