Actually Mummy "ming jian".... she could have someone to look after her kids whenever she wants to... But the wilful and rebellious side of her simply refuses the help or maybe resented the help... Cos when she needed help most 4 years ago, she was being rejected and betrayed!!! That explains why no matter how tough it was for the past 4 years, Mummy insisted on looking after her babes, sacrificing her own time and enjoyment.... I really appreciated the understanding of my friends whenever I "fly their aeroplane" and most importantly my own mum who had stand by me and helped me throughout no matter how tired she was....
Maybe as Daddy said, I am just being stubborn but thats just who I am... I just couldnt forgive and forget what happened.... the grievances that I suffered and the tears that I shed in that month was just so unforgettable....I trusted and listened but was betrayed and forced to shoulder the responsibility, when it was not my fault at all.... For the sake of those who had heard the betrayal story umpteen times, I will not repeat it again... But the thorn is always in my heart so no matter what happen now, I will not believe, will not trust, will not appreciate, will not entrust my kids to..... I know who are the ones that really care and love me.....
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